Listening to: Jatuh by Liyana Fizi
Hi.
Actually I planned to blog about my eventful last Saturday but I was kind of busy with other stuffs. And when I do have time today, I will be blogging about other topic.
The thing is, I am super duper frustrated with myself (again) today. Have you ever get so tired with yourself for being so careless that you just want to give a good spanking to your own head and you wanna curse (mencarut) like A LOT but you know you can't do that because it's not good. Sighhh...even sighing (mengeluh) is not good. Huwaaa I want to cry like seriously TT_____TT
Okay back to the main topic. Today I woke up especially early, firstly because I want to sahur for puasa. Secondly, because I want to spend my last days in my rented room in Sepang. Well, I'd like to make the most out of my paid rent this month and plus, I love the place so much. And also, I need to do some last cleaning like mopping the room, packing the final stuffs before going back family home for good.
After sahur and subuh, I took the trash out, lori sampah datang hari ni. Then I proceed to pack my laptop (usually I don't bring laptop to my rented room thus I was always bored. I don't like blogging through mobile phone, the keyboard too small takde feel nak menulis panjang). Brought along a set of jogging attire as well because I soOOOoo can see myself jogging here tomorrow morning and I planned to bid goodbye to this place on Sunday morning.
But...
When I arrived and have securely parked my car in the house porch, I found out that~~~
I did not bring the keys.
TT___TT
I have never ever ever ever remove the keys from my car when I go home okay. This is the first time and what makes it even more hideous is these are the final days and I don't plan to come for another time in a very near future. The only consolation I have is I do keep spare key of the big door and room. I don't duplicate the grill door's key though...I tried to check all the suspected compartments in the car, in my bags that I brought, and I tried very hard to remember if I ever accidentally throw it away but I really could not recall throwing it, so it must have been sleeping snugly at my family home *rolls eyes*. Must be the last time I came, I might have kept it in the trouser's pocket and end up taking it out inside the house instead of in the car.
So I got blank for a while. Should I drive the whole 1 hour back to my house to search for the keys? And then come back immediately because this evening got new tenant prospect wants to see my room. But that will be very tiring, ridiculous and frustrating much. Tak pasal2 bayar tol RM3.50 sampai 3 kali sehari just sebab aku ni super careless. Finally, I texted housemate group if anyone can help unlock the grill so I could come in.
Now I'm already in. I think I should just proceed the cleaning and wait for that new girl in the evening before returning home, find the keys and come back here to leave the keys at my room door tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow.
Good thing I brought a few bottles of my essential oils. Sedut Lavender dan Peppermint tu rasa lega sikit. And at the same time, I tried to console myself that maybe, just maybe there is hikmah in this situation. Although it just seems like this whole thing happened was due to my carelessness, but sometimes, I want to believe there is another kind of fate that awaits after every frustrating events that happened in my life.
Dulu Mama ajar, kalau apa-apa jadi kat kita, atau kita ditakdirkan sekian-sekian, kita terima je. Jangan banyak bunyi. Jangan bila sesuatu tu kita tak dapat, kita nak juga paksa untuk dapatkan, contoh macam rayuan kolej dalam post ni.
Lagi satu Mama pesan, kalau benda kita dah tertinggal, and then kita dah jauh sangat nak patah balik, biar je tinggal. Jangan patah2 balik. Dah nak tertinggal nak buat macam mana? Kadang mungkin ada benda yang ditentukan untuk kita jumpa atau dielakkan untuk kita terkena. Aku tak boleh nak ulas sangatlah konsep ni tapi Mama banyak pergi dengar ceramah/tazkirah so maybe ada la topik ni dalam salah satu perkongsian kot. Cuma aku terpikir, kalau pergi kerja, tertinggal laptop, nak tak nak kena jugalah balik ambil kan kalau tak, kerja tak jalan pula huhu.
So that's it. Kecewa sangat. Kemurungan kejap. Tapi sekejap jelah sebab aku kan redho orangnya :p Benda dah nak jadi nak buat macam mana? Frust dan sedih lama-lama sangat pun bukan boleh ubah situasi. Hahaha but still, marah la juga diri sendiri dan harap pada masa hadapan tak careless lagi macam ni. After luah semua rasa lega sikit. Boleh start buat kerja dah kejap ni~
Later!
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