This woman...

 Hi,

For a few posts before this, I shared them to my FB. I want to make it like ten years ago. But to my dismay, the feelings are not the same. Now, after I shared on my FB, I sort of having a lot of thinking;

"Is it too childish?"

"Is it beneficial?"

"Are all my writings worthy to be read?"

"Do people still want to see personal occurrence in one's life?"

"Should I actually act more mature by keeping all to myself only?"

"Is sharing to FB something that I should do?"

There are too many noise in my head. And I started to feel like I should not be publicly sharing my posts again. This is no 2011, this is 2021. This is no Forever 21 girl having strong feelings for so many things. This is just 31-to-be woman, who is trying to chase one of her childhood dream. This woman is claiming her time to fulfill something. This woman, ever so grateful for she, is inevitably loved by many. Her friends loved her much, her family loved her the best, She loves herself too. But this woman doesn't have a suitor. She was once hurt and since then she became super choosy, unbelieving, easily bored by empty texts. She believes in good people and good conversation. She, who once thought that getting married is easy, is now swallowing her own false notion because it is definitely not easy. 

She's warm with other women, but indifferently euthymic to men. She would rather be called 'sombong' than being called 'gatal'. She, is not who she was ten years ago. She does not put her heart on her sleeves, she keep it in a glass box to be sold at museum, until she finds a man who can successfully steal the glass box and break it, to heal her broken heart.

In a nutshell, I will not share my blog posts in FB anymore. 

Haha tetibo jadi nak berkarya bagai dah kenapa~