25/08/25 - Comeback hihi~

I just read my past drafts and damn there's some that were soooo cringe!

Muntah weh, muntah.

I always feel like I should just write a blogpost instead of IG story.

Somehow it always feels like when I post story, I am more towards looking for attention than actually wanting to share. Well, I did share, and I did want to share, but I always exaggerate as though showing I'm cool, I'm great, I'm better than you kind of vibe. And when I think again, I don't like that attitude on me. I don't want to be attention seeker anymore. Bye.

Ok so hmm...let's see. I kind of like my job now. Although I always got small heart when they always left me out on important things. Everybody else would know except me. Since I'm the only Malaysian in the staffroom, I'm being marginalized weh, in Malaysia! Kahkah...can't be helped I guess? They're all from the same country, speak the same language, only I speak their language brokenly and stuck out like sore thumb. So actually I shouldn't be so small heart la because they tolerate my lack of speaking skill, they always understand even though I talk tunggang terbalik like crap weh, apa kau belajar 2 tahun tu Ainaa?

There are handsome and young teachers (gula-gula mata), cleaner baik, maintenance macam famili. Nikmat apa lagi yang kau nak dustakan Ainaa? Haa gitu.

Although benda-benda ni rasa macam nak share kat story je, tapi tak boleh la. Aku taktahu kenapa aku rasa aku tak boleh post something happy. There''re always unhappy or bitter 'friends' seeing me happy. Aku pun silap juga, bahagia Allah bagi tu untuk aku, bukan untuk tayang kat kawan-kawan. Ada tumpul juga kau ni Ainaa. Bendul sangat. Ko ingat share cerita happy dan positif tu akan mempositifkan hidup ko? Silap besar la weh, nobody wants to see their friend happy. But share something hopeless, they will be there for you.

Dunia sekarang dah terbalik. Kalau dulu kata kawan masa susah tu susah nak cari. Sekarang rasa macam kawan masa susah tu boleh jadi lagi common berbanding kawan happy. Sebab kawan tak suka tengok kita happy. Kalau time kita need friend, ada shitty things happen to us, ada je orang2 baik yang sudi dengar, sudi pujuk. Sekali kita keluar cerita happy, haa terserlah lah apa tersirat di dalam hati. Tak suka tengok kita happy rupanya. Ok fine. Ainaa dah belajar, dan dah taknak jadi bodoh lagi. IG story kita share content agama atau reels merepek je ok~

Enough for now. Actually banyak je benda jadi tapi bila start tulis ni dah tak terkeluar pula. Next time eh!