How Confidence Has Changed My Life :)

I used to be a passive girl.
I used to be fat and have no confidence at all.
I used to not being heard.
I am so used to be talking in a group of friends and left unnoticed,
like they were completely oblivious of what I just said.

It all happened through the whole of my school years.
Even with my family, I always have no confidence to show my love.
There would always be stupid thinking in my head like

"I wanna hug mama/baba but that's too cheesy, I'm shy, what will they think about me?"

That sort of things.
But as I grow older, and tough circumstances happened,
I find myself breaking out of the shell, little by little.
I'm confident to give a tight hug to people I loved, to those that I missed.
I'm confident to say "I love you" to my family and friends and get more love.

And as I enter University, the same thing of not being heard happen again.
But somehow, I entered clubs and societies.
And one fine day, I was chosen to enter some sort of seminar representing faculty with 5 other friends
This seminar gathered 6 person from each faculty and representatives from state campuses.
So yeah, there were around 200 people in that hall.
And at the end of the day,
We have to present to the whole crowd about what can we do to improve our faculty.
But the condition is, only ONE person will be talking in front.
I was chosen, because the others doesn't want to.
My lecturer was there, she couldn't trust me.
I tried to boost my confidence level alone, I practiced far from them.
When it was my turn, I look to the whole crowd.
And I suddenly have this feeling of

"They want to listen to me, I have practiced, this is going to be good"

And I talk and talk, somewhere in between, there were nods and applause.
When it all ended, my lecturers came and said

"Thank God, I never thought you can talk like that in front of people. Everyone liked you so much!"

Alhamdulillah :)
Since then, there is no place for extreme-shyness to take over my life.
I felt so good having transformed myself like the ugly duckling turned into a swan.