Few knows about a car accident that happened to me and my family last 25th July. Though we manage to escape unhurt (setakat lebam sikit considered unhurt lah ye), but the car was damaged pretty badly. Engine totally kaput, body (front) looks like a head on accident with lorry je (i memang suka exaggerate kan)
Let's see, if I can find a photo here, ok here it goes
My mind can still replay the whole scene it was so terrifying. The car stayed in workshop almost a month. Major breakdown. And when it came to our posession again, me and mama, we're both too afraid to drive on the same route again.
The accident took place at Mahameru, right at the flyover to KL Sentral. That's our usual route when going to Bangsar, Shah Alam, Subang and any other destination yang sehala dengannya. Seldom we use the road infront of the National Museum or any other highway.
Back when the time we were still provided with transport when working at odd hours, my life was easy. I could escape from driving too soon (and memang I always ambil public transport pun unless mood strikes me to drive)
But starting 1st September (thanks to new management MAB, transport for odd shift employees like us is no longer provided. Kesianlah to those yang memang tak ada kereta dan tak ada lesen. But there's always silver lining kan. Even though kejam sebab tarik transport macam tu je, dari sisi yang lebih cerah (read on the bright side), perkara ni akan paksa kita jadi independent. Pada yang ada transport, kita jadi lagi bertimbang rasa dan peka nak membantu kawan yang tak ada transport. Kan. Kelaut pulak entri aku. Bukan tadi tengah cerita pasal overcoming trauma ke?
So kisahnya in the early of September, aku ambil langkah tumpang kawan (perempuan ye) yang kebetulan tinggal nearby dan kebetulan satu team dengan aku. Bila start shift awal pagi, sekali je aku try drive balik, that was September 8th. Waktu tu aku ikut jalan bandar, lalu depan muzium, what a long bumpy road if I shall compare.
But what to do, I wasn't ready to give Mahameru a shot again. I felt the place was evil. I felt the surge of emergency even when my friend was the one driving up that flyover. I hated and blamed the road contruction there (and I still do haha).
So being a kind soul she is, every morning I went to her house to tumpang sekali. Which is I felt kind of bad sometimes because I add on to the weight of her car that makes her have to press the oil pedal more when I tumpang, hmm.
So this morning, September 16th, I woke up to a new feeling, new resolution, new thoughts. I analyzed back, for how long must I be afraid of that road? Do I think that if I keep taking another road, my life would be accident-free? What about all those many many years when we passed there, nothing happened? Shouldn't I realize that the accident that happened is by a slip of fate? It is not going to happen everytime I go there, don't I realize? There's nothing to be afraid of as long as I do my best to drive safely and most importantly, to always remember Allah and my syahadah when I drive.
That's my mental dialogue this morning, that made me drive along that same road again. Mahameru-KL Sentral flyover straight to Bangsar-Universiti and to Federal Highway.
It is undeniably a quite fearful experience, to actually be there again. But I tried not to think of the what ifs. You know all the what ifs in a traumatic mind right?
So, alhamdulillah.
I'm safely in the office right now, happy Malaysia Day to everyone and have a great offday with your family and loved ones. For those working like me, happy claiming for public holiday pay and let's find the silver lining on the clouds in our lives :)
P/s: bila dah kena accident, cuba ingat balik mungkin kita kurang bersedekah, mungkin leka tak berzakat, tak banyak tolong orang. Apa pun musibah, kalau kita reflect balik dan kalau dapat nampak sangkut pautnya, mungkin dapat jadikan kita lebih peka perkara-perkara ni. Let us all be a giver, do good, be good, say good things, be honest and most importantly, remember Allah at all times :)
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