I'm sorry, Heart

It's just a matter of time.
It's going to happen anyway.
In just a matter of time, that I'm sure of.
So that I won't get sad.
I've got a reminder
To tell me "never".

Never put any full trust on anyone.
Never think that everything is going to be like I think
Never hope too much
Never love too much
Never care too much
Never, just never
So that my heart will never be hurt again
So that I will be indifferent
So that I will stop injuring my own heart

It will explode
Because of excessive love, courage and hope
But it's explosion would somewhat mean death
Because the explosion would never turn into something pretty like fireworks, or even supernova.
It will just explode there, and there it ends.
And afterwards, it has got to accept that accidents happen,
Injuries happen
And now is the time to heal itself
To amend the broken pieces
Put it back together
Though the wounds are going to be there
It will survive another day, until the last beat

I'm sorry, heart.
Please don't get mad at me.
I just hope you'd stop dreaming.
Because I want to feed you with things
That will make you calm
I have high hopes on that
And I know I won't be disappointed.

This time,
I want to do justice to you.
Please support me, heart.
Stop begging me to find love of creations,
instead, support me to find the love of The Creator.

Aanya, 23rd May 2013, 3.22am