Don't be sad

Can I not be sadder than this?
I mean, I should be ready for all this right?
I am emotionally strong enough to bear it again right?
Right? Right Anna? Right? Isn't that right?

Right.
It will be right if I say right.
Everything's gonna be alright if I said so.
Yes. It's gonna be right and it's gotta be.

Felt like going somewhere else.
Japan?
Too good to be true.
Just to another state maybe.
Maybe I'd feel better, no?

Why would it always ended up like this?
Am I that unlucky?
No, there has got to be the real intention of God somewhere that I couldn't see now.
I believe everything that happened, as long as I kept faith and stay true to myself, everything that happened is good, will be good and will bring me happiness.
I believe the message lies somewhere deep, and maybe will take time to reveal itself.

Whatever it is, I am happy because I don't trade myself with something I'm not.
I don't behave in a way I'm uncomfortable with like I stupidly did in my previous stupid life.
As far as I'm concern, I just have to be me, and being me is having a lot of dimensions that I don't have to explain if people don't ask.
Nonetheless, alhamdulillah.
There has got to be something good behind all this.
Alhamdulillah.